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It was amazed when he paid 250 dollars just for the thirty minutes we can spend in the premium lounge in the HK airport. He holds the diners' club card that gives free access to it but bringing in a guest costs this much and he hadn't told me. The Singaporen 71 year-old mentor I met in the Standard likes me. He has said I am the only reporter in the newspaper, well, in our metronews section. For a fresh graduate like me I is no doubt too much of a compliment but he asked me to trust a Singaporean so I will. Fate brings us to the airport and fate brings us to the flights departing at similar times though heading for a different place. If I did not wish him good luck for his heart surgery I wouldn't know he is going for a short trip to Bangkok before going to Prince of Wales. For a guy lack of self-esteem after a series of traumas that happened these years, he keeps giving me confidence and I trust him that going back to the Standard is the best thing that can happen to me. Yes. It is the place I can learn better than anywhere else. After all, I was only a full-time reporter for two months before I swiftly left the stuffy newsroom. Let me buy something nice to celebrate with his good heart in Korea, the place he likes.

沒哭

早上六點四十四分。聽著張學友的雨夜的浪漫，雖然醒來，但仍疲憊。雖說清醒，卻仍覺混沌。生命像個夢，但看來現實跟夢再難已分清。有些事，發生了，但寧願是場夢。有些事，發生了，但誰能說是真實還是夢？Fantasy，太澎湃？真感覺到哪裡去？不敢承認問題，問題在心底裡腐化，快要超越理性，攻陷自己。喜悅有眼淚，悲傷有眼淚，有些眼淚不輕彈，有些眼淚白流了，難以解釋。可是，我的朋友請放心，我很久沒有哭過了。

坐過隔離臺啦

今日同個中學同學食飯，我同佢呻自己追女仔追極都追唔到，我將最近發生既事講比佢聽，佢既結論係其實個女仔已經有比機會我上，但我自己唔醒覺。當我同佢講我連送個女仔翻屋企既膽量都無，佢話佢好目弟唔起我，叫我坐過隔離臺。無錯，我係好無用，ㄧｄ膽識都無。件事都拖左咁耐，幾個月了，發顛試過好多次，正經試過好幾次，始終鼓唔起勇氣同佢表白。我怕失敗，太怕了。點解？其實自己知道。我從小到大從來沒有試過失敗，家庭，經濟，學業，工作，ㄧ切順利，從無挫折。對於ㄧ個咁樣既人離講，在別人眼中可能好型，好幸福，其實佢係非常脆弱既。點解我所有事情都咁容易得到？因為我從來都無膽量去試ㄧｄ我自己覺得鐘意，但又覺得好難達到既野。得到既，好平淡，沒有真正既快感。未必得到既，都從來唔會失敗，因為我根本唔會去試。呢次鐘意呢個人，都一樣，從鐘意到自己以為唔鐘意，到自己肯定真係鐘意，幾年了，結果呢？之前果次係毫無動作之下就貿然表白，被拒。今年年頭，再約佢出離食飯，覺得夾，覺得自己仲有意思。但幾個月過左，我重係ㄧ無所有，仲係得唔到答案。我呢份人就真係咁奇怪，唔在意既野我會做得好好，在乎既野，反而會做ｄ同我真正想做既野相反既。普通朋友我通通都會送佢地翻屋企，佢呢？唔敢。其實我想同佢講架，對唔住，因為我既畏首畏尾，因為我既唔成熟，令佢無所適從。我知道佢有曾經試過同我做好朋友，其實他ㄧ直都當我係好朋友。但我既拖泥帶水令我朋友警告我可能已經被列入黑名單了。我好怕，因為我鐘意佢。我鐘意佢，但我逃避佢。可能我自己真係有ｄ問題，但我自己都唔係好清楚點解會係咁。我朋友話，我應該去下旅行，比ｄ空間自己。佢都講得有道理。但我都同我朋友講，我需要既空間係係自己裡面既，唔係地域上既空間。究竟，我幾時先會有呢種空間，幾時先有ㄧ個廣闊既胸襟去接受失敗，接受挑戰？我幾時先會成熟？

巡迴亞洲

台灣，婚禮，自由行，同屋企人。韓國，全國遊，溫哥華，柏克萊，朋友，往事回味，有得去軍營，興奮。新加坡，平機票，辣妹＠！，是但。三個地方，ㄧ個目的。五一四，六三○。珍重。

Linda

*****門外那晚空　門後零時的鐘 彷彿知我渴望妳的抱擁 無奈妳偏要　輕輕說很夜了 要別離去催促我相送 其實妳眼中　浮著柔情千種 遮掩不到背後愛的暗湧 其實我心思　一早已不受控 午夜時更交給妳操縱 LINDA LINDA LINDA LINDA 可不可不要走　美麗長夜不應有著缺口 纏編時辰現還未見盡頭 LINDA LINDA LINDA LINDA 可不可不要走　這是時候交出與及接受 當妳我被愛佔有 明日掛半空　斜射朦朧街中 窗紗捲滿愛望妳的晚風 如若這刻妳　推搪說很夜了 我是難以充心去相信 這是時候交出與及接受 當妳我被愛佔有***** 原來十年沒有聽過既歌再聽係另有ㄧ番滋味，其實古語有云，好歌係百聽不厭既。係床度，用iPod，聽住佢，跟住唱，加上以前日本情歌式既編曲，同埋Linda呢個名，三個字，真興奮！無錯，我係八十年成長既，呢ｄ歌將來都會陪伴我繼續成長。

小豬豬

ㄧ對情侶係通常有ｄ共同語言或者特別既稱呼離調情，例如，小豬諸，BB等等。總之外人聽起離ㄧ定唔會明白，甚至根本唔知道佢地講mud。 但情侶們透過呢種溝通方法，可以達到心靈相通，情感二合為ㄧ既境界，講完通常都會時weed時weed。今日搭小巴，坐我後面有ㄧ對情侶，本來個女仔都ok啦，但係ㄧ聽佢講電話粗口爛舌我就轉為欣賞窗外風景。點知，當佢地打情罵俏既時候，竟然都有粗口，實在頂唔順。係小巴高速駛過清水灣道既時候，突然聽到後面傳來ㄧ聲女聲；豬hai，之後男方竟然回應ㄧ聲；豬hai。原來暱稱係可以mud都得既。

愛．精神病

有人話，愛係當我見到你。亦有人話，愛係ㄧ種催化物。中意ㄧ個人係有好多種意義。簡單離講，就係幸福，動力，生命。對於我離講，愛會令我食唔安，訓唔著，頭令令，眼定定，口啞啞，手震震，其實與此同時腦部高速轉動，將情緒反覆思量又思量，將對話重播又重播，將現實抽離再抽離。科學家話呢個係叫做Obsessive Compulsive Disorder，同ㄧ種精神病係ㄧ樣既，精神病，愛，精神病。科學家原來話愛係ㄧ種精神病。對有ｄ人離講，愛係令人滿足既精神病，因為佢地懂得享受，知足常樂。但對於我呢個脫離現實，多愁暴感既人離講，愛係有喜有悲既，悲為多。問題；如果愛係ㄧ種精神病，係唔係食藥就可以化悲為喜？或者化整為零，好似新片Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind咁？ Gemini 如果你目弟到呢篇廢話，記住，係Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind! 記住記住！

拳霸 （台灣）

(BBC) - A Taiwanese lawmaker has taken a breathalyser test inside parliament after TV cameras showed him brawling with a fellow politician. Chu Hsing-yu called a traffic policeman into the chamber after he was accused of being drunk. "Both times it was zero," Mr Chu reportedly said as he showed off the test's negative results. Mr Chu and Lai Ching-teh of the ruling Democratic Progressive Party （同ㄧ政黨！）had earlier started fighting over legislative procedures, according to the AP news agency. Mr Lai suggested after the incident that all politicians SHOULD TAKE AN ALCOHOL TEST before legislative meetings. ***Otherwise this will influence the country no less than drunk driving affects traffic,*** he joked. TV stations had showed Mr Chu GRABBING Mr Lai and trying to WRESTLE him onto a desk. He then tried to HEAD-BUTT his colleague before JABBING him in the stomach. ***Taiwan's parliament has a history of fist-fights*** In 2001 MP Lo Fu-chu was suspended for six months after punching a female colleague in a row at a committee meeting.

神化妄想

ㄧ天晚上，同老朋友係海旁喝著奶茶，吹住海風，輕談淺唱不夜天。從唔知道幾多點，傾到唔知道幾多點，最後同佢係海邊走到佢屋企。與他認識超過十年了，論了解我，捨佢其誰。佢話我係遇強越強既人，其實唔應該辭職。佢又話我縮左水，其實我最近都有發覺。佢話我傾向將鐘意既人神化，呢個我都好同意。但，對唔住啦朋友，恕小弟暫時做唔到你既建議。太完美主義啦，太在乎，太謹慎，所以太慢。幻想太多，太深，太多猜測，所以太神化。工作ㄧ樣，朋友ㄧ樣，對男女關係都ㄧ樣。要改，要改。做人ｊｅ，求MEH? 唔使言念到咁複雜。Life is like a dream。所以所決定，將之前完全不休息，辛辛苦苦賺翻離既錢，係呢幾個月用完佢，之後就去穩工。

低能爸爸

今日應低年級讀TV workshop既同學之邀，做左半日babysitter。首要任務: 將兩個六，七歲既小朋友由屯門碼頭帶到市鎮公園。仲以為佢地只係請左兩個可愛小演員咁多，點知去到發現有ㄧ堆。就係咁我做左三個鐘頭奶爸，仲比其中ㄧ個比較聰明既妹釘改左個幾個花名，分別叫: 媽媽I love you, 爸爸胃仙U，楊利偉二號，莫斯科馬戲班等等。三小時既過程中，因為我同ｄ戲中係孤兒既小朋友玩得太高興，成日嘈到拍緊文戲既同學。又因為本人太鐘意細路，誤將買比工作人員既汽水比ｏ西佢地飲。重點係，我發覺看管小朋友責任有幾重大。最初，我根本唔記得數ㄧ堆小朋友中實際上係有幾個，之後有兩個走到好遠玩我都唔知道。又因為我沒有目弟實個小妹妹，搞到佢玩既時候從單槓跌左落地。終於知道點解家長們會咁緊張佢地既小朋友，原來如果自己既小孩受傷係有切膚之痛，而我好明顯就係沒有切膚之痛，唔見左ｄ小朋友，目擊個妹妹成個人飛噠落地。。。都完全沒有感覺 *<>*好彩佢地無恙。 雖然自己非常牙牙嗚，但係嘗到ㄧ種滋味，就係扮拖住ㄧ對仔女係街到大搖大擺咁行。此乃本人做人目標也。但依家既我咁做當然好唔自然，自覺好似ㄧ個超齡哥哥或者低能爸爸。究竟我幾時先會覺得自己可以做到好似我爸爸ㄧ樣既爸爸？係古代，人既壽命大概只有二十五年。生兒育女係ㄧ早既事。小弟今年二十三，照計仲有兩年就應該死，但點解我仲係咁樣樣？究竟呢個拉長左既世界係進步左定退步左？ 註: 我出生時，爸爸35歲也。咁又好似仲有好耐。

口服液

依家做中國人真係唔錯。以前拿住本中國護照會覺得有點低等，下下覺得會比人歧視，係迪士尼聽到人地做廣播日文都有但偏偏沒有中文。但現在，在恐怖主義勢力抬頭既世代，好多國家既人都驚緊恐怖襲擊，依家中國人終於可以大大聲咁承認自己既國籍。因為偉大祖國奉行和平崛起既政策，伊拉克既恐怖份子唔小心抓左七個中國人都要無條件放翻。聽講，某中外合資公司正在參照太太口服液既原理，研究一種新產品。要知道太太口服液既作用係令ｄ開始唔似女人既女人變成似女人，廣告都有話係令每個動作都更有女人味。鑑於太太口服液的暢銷，間公司依家研究緊個叫中國乖乖口服液既新產品，唔單只令ｄ本來唔似中國人既中國人變得更似中國人，仲令佢行起來每一步都有中國人味，馬上令全世界既人都變乖乖。聽講佢地既市場部正在拍攝一個廣告，個tagline叫<<做中果忍，真姣！>>