Mozart

開住部ipod 既莫札特的歌曲 幻想自己是一個高文化的人 攸然自得的過著週日的夜晚 本來部ipod mozart既歌隔離就係DMX 同50 cents 但係今日發覺自己個胃有點酸軟 所以想聽聽據說可以放鬆心情的歌

晚上在數錢 應該係銀包收集回來的錢 (因為最近出外吃飯都用信用卡 所以收集了好多錢) 發覺這個月除了一點剩餘的卡數 都有幾千元剩 發現時 精神為之一振 跟住同自己講 錢而已 不要太緊張

回想一年前 我欠債數萬 只有一萬元人工 又不能讓家人知道 真的好辛苦

現在要盡快處理個胃殘留著當年緊張時積聚的胃酸 然而洗澡時發現肚皮有粒硬塊 希望只是一夠骨

清醒

夜闌人靜，享受難得的清醒。慶幸自己今週滴酒不沾，拒絕墮落。但根本問題仍然存在。

三小時

還有三小時就是悠長假期啦

Stupid people

I told my dad:"some people are really stupid" of coz i was talking about those people i'm training. they keep asking stupid questions and never learn. when i was saying that. i felt my nose getting sore and agitated. this is how hard i worked towards this point. it's been six months and i became the most senior reporter in the company, while four competitors resigned. they were stupid so they are off. and the company should really feel great having hired me because of what i have done and what i will do for the company. when i am now training people, the questions they are asking is really the questions i had nobody to ask. my boss at the time was so cold and she expected me to know everything or i'm too stupid to work here. and now i became evil instead of learning lesson from my boss and treating juniors better. yes it's evil but where else can i vent the steam. i told my dad. i am really smart and i felt so excited about it. but all these is only to convince myself i'm doing the right thing while the job has alreay made me sink into irrevertible challenge in life and depression.

Journalist Award

I never thought I am a good writer. People have told me I am still young and time is there for me to pick up new words and write well. Since I was really small, I felt I can speak better than I write. My mind is probably faster than my hands so i always jump in what I write. just saw a friend's blog who writes really well. it's strange to realize i can understand what she writes but i can never write like her. maybe it's uniqueness of life. i don't speak in a way others do but i can always listen. my ex colleague told me i could be underestimating myself and overestimating the passage of time. he said i have only been one and a half year in the writing business and i should n't stop learning although i was no longer going to be a journalist. today i saw my article won an award at the hk journalist society. well, the award is not really for me coz it's only the headline that won (i checked with the website and saw the editor's name next to my article, who obviously was the winner) but this gives me aspirations (exacebation?) as in hey man, i should have been more persistent on what i'm doing and i could have achieved more than what money counts! ok. this is a valid point since my job changes has been led by salary figures. and the problem is i still don't feel patient enough to read and my colleague said this is the only way i can improve writing.

Classic

XXX says:
ok, well can you say which companies you spoke to, what they said and add some analysts comment rather than just research?
XXX says:
otherwise we will have to leave on hold til you have soemthing fresh
Dennis Chong HK says:
ok, let's hold it until i get a response from the companies. but it will be after easter.
XXX says:
when is your easter?
XXX says:
our is in 2 weeks
Dennis Chong HK says:
this friday
XXX says:
what about tomorrow?
Dennis Chong HK says:
as i said the companies will not talk until next week
XXX says:
what did the companies you spoke to actually say?
XXX says:
oh, i see
XXX says:
when was this Deutsche Bank research report?
Dennis Chong HK says:
sept 2005
XXX says:
i see, from which office was it done?
Dennis Chong HK says:
it's their hong kong equity research analysts
XXX says:
since its their hong kong office would you mind calling them so we can use their comments rather than an old report?
Dennis Chong says:
i did they said they don't talk to the press. you could try
Dennis Chong says:
i don't know why they don't but it's what happened
xxx says:
that's odd, banks usually like talking abnout their reports, that why they publish them
XXX says:
have you tried to call them?
Dennis Chong HK says:
yes i did you could try now this XXX should be on her desk
XXX says:
that would be wonderrful
Dennis Chong HK says:
you can find her number on the report
XXX says:
you don't want to call?
Dennis Chong HK says:
i called her already
Dennis Chong HK says:
she said they don't speak to the press
Dennis Chong HK says:
i called 30 mins ago
XXX says:
ok, give me her number and i'll try her
Dennis Chong HK says:
the number is on the research report

女同事同自己

公司有好多女同事 日日同佢地吃飯 日日聽他們既girls talk 唯一可以埋堆既 就係一係唔講野 一係講D 中聽既野

係張檯四個人加我 一個泰國人一個韓國人一個加拿大竹昇一個澳洲番黎既 咁既配搭 的確係 我小時候夢寐以求既

幾個女人有幾種性格 但始終離唔開 "八" 呢個字 一座埋 構成1.33 個虛 我唯一可以做既就安靜咁做一個觀眾

其實我都有想 如果佢地是但一個做左我老婆會點 一個似我以前既暗戀對象 一個笨得可愛 一個好傾 一個最漂亮 四個都各有優點 而且三個都沒有男朋友

我拍過三次拖了 但論清楚自己 還未夠班 有一天 我同個舊同事吃飯 我問他幾時發覺他老婆是the right person 他說好早既知道 我問他點解 是否他大個心態唔同 佢話唔係 係因為佢知道佢想要D mud

其實都係一個一樣既答案 咁又係 佢都三張幾 都應該清楚自己要mud ge

至於我 當然覺得自己飽歷滄桑 但係相比好多人 我的確只係弔兒郎當 所以 我應該忠告自己 應該做一D現在適當做既野 想過龍 而做唔到 係沒意思的

男人之虎

昨天看了男人之虎 感覺還好 詹瑞文演技的確ㄧ流 能夠在兩個多小時不斷變更角色 演出獨腳戲 令人仰慕 這就是藝術工作者 不怕艱辛 努力向目標進發 在惡劣的生存環境當中不斷自強 他從二十出頭在英國演街頭戲 到現在能在香港市場經濟中扮演重要文化角色 是年輕人學習對象 他在戲中講 香港男人最大弱點是只懂用筷子吃蛋糕 （意即沒叉用） 此話應當喚醒本地ㄧ眾師爺 從其無病呻吟 及自尋煩惱當中 尋找出路 重拾生活 看完話劇 並沒有得到啟發 倒在街上遊蕩數小時 還在麥當勞寫下令人吃驚的文章 現在文章應當儲存在垃圾堆填區中 大概很快便會被壓在汽水罐之下 長埋地上

人工高的結果

點解 我以前剛剛開始的時候想出去 老細就問三問四 又話我要有opp先可以出去 搞到我每次出去都戰戰兢兢 好大壓力 但現在D人出去就沒有人問 番黎唔寫野 又沒有人追究 而我又唔可以插手過問 咁樣好唔公平je 我為你打生打死 現在得到mud? 雖然我人工高je 但係都做得唔開心 都唔係辦法gu wor. 依家仲日日都驚住寫唔夠野比人哦 而日日我仲要扮到 好唔在乎 好安然 同好鎮定咁 真係好辛苦

打電話

好想打給她 問她最近點 但係又唔知可以講mud

夠訓

我覺得其實早訓對我來講真係好重要 好似噙日咁 我十點半就訓左 雖然今日三點就醒左 但係四點幾訓番 訓到七點幾 我都覺得好夠訓 今日應該會去開始做gym 因為就係樓下 所以七八個同事都join左

低調搞手

轉自蘋果日報 30/3/2006

一 般 人 要 去 迪 士 尼 樂 園 可 以 話 去 就 去 ， 但 係 全 身 癱 瘓 阿 斌 前 日 可 以 暢 遊 迪 士 尼 ， 背 後 就 要 靠 唔 少 熱 心 人 出 力 。 商 台 節 目 主 持 人 查 小 欣 噚 日 透 露 ， 原 來 阿 斌 舊 年 八 月 已 經 提 出 希 望 去 迪 士 尼 ， 捐 贈 電 動 輪 椅 畀 阿 斌 歌 星 張 學 友 ， 舊 年 有 日 去 瑪 麗 醫 院 探 阿 斌 ， 當 日 重 要 係 黃 色 暴 雨 ， 兩 個 人 閒 談 之 間 ， 阿 斌 問 身 為 迪 士 尼 大 使 張 學 友 有 無 帶 個 女 去 新 開 迪 士 尼 樂 園 玩 ， 張 學 友 答 話 有 ， 阿 斌 就 話 ： 「 我 都 好 想 去 ！ 」 佢 仲 開 玩 笑 問 學 友 ： 「 可 唔 可 以 幫 我 免 費 飛 呀 ？ 」 張 學 友 當 場 好 爽 快 咁 就 答 應 ， 結 果 阿 斌 終 於 夢 想 成 真 。

張學友勁型~~~~~

Crossroad

The relationship between me and my parents has not gotten more difficult than this. We all struggle in this dillemma with them getting old and me getting into the soceity. they are keen on providing with advice, indeed persistenly, on decisions i make in life and i do not feel i should be confined to their mindset. however, both of us cannot yet get over the inertia of exposing each other's reluctance to see ourselves grow, and age. a good relationship requires lies. people can survive even with the conflict of thoughts and interest not because people know how to compromise, but to hide. differences between personalities, or needs, clashes results in discontent in the course of life. my dad and mom are 60. i'm 25. my dad is now in his room while my mom talking with her sister and i'm speaking to blogger.com. we just had a discussion/debate about why i should not have taken part a gym membership while the end of the conversation is not solutions. i still want to expose as much of myself to them and their goal is to avoid me making any mistakes. but the differences in ideals keep bringing us moments that make us regret to speak our own thoughts. we are in this crossroad and who would take the first step to move forward?

Cheap Hong Kong

Damn this Credit Suisse corporate affairs person will be condemned by god and be a shame being a hongkong person. i was asking for access to a industry forum and i was trying to be nice and kept saying sorry for being late. she did that for me by fedex but then i tried get into the cocktail session she replied me by saying it's "impossible" . this feels like i'm begging her and under no circumstances she should not have treated me this way although work for this unknown publication. what if i work for bloomberg would she say it's impossible? hong kong people are really rude.

am watching a taiwanese call-in show and a caller was waiting for really long but when the host picked up the call she actually said "i'm sorry that i kept you waiting." This is taiwanese and this is basic respect to others, no matter who you are and who you are speaking with. unfortunately i don't think i can see this in hk. if this happened in hk the host is deemed to think they are superior and it's your own issue if you chose to wait and i was not under any obligation to say sorry. many radio hosts actually cut off callers. why are hk people so cheap.

See Dees

So glad that my friend from the States bought me this Alicia Key's concert CD and now i am listening to it. iPod is actually a powerful machine this tiny gadget beams unstoppable music as i hold it tight with my hand.

i myself also bought a few CDs of a cantonese taiwanese singer Wakin Chow coz it's a collection of his songs since the 80s.

two weeks before easter. looking forward to it.

Friday evening

Now sitting there in the office doing nothin and waiting to get off. Finally it's Friday but i ain't really too excited about it since it's going to be pretty much the same as i am not doing anything. except that i'm picking up a friend from the airport but we didn't really have plans. and on saturday i have this class to go to. and tonight i'm eating with a college friend who actually knows one of my friends from high school. my colleagues start to get chinese medicine from me and i wanted to ask whether i should buy a few packs for them. but when i thought of making money out of it i backed down coz i don't think i will feel good about it. i will not be a good businessman and even if i am i will never sell stuff to those i know.

刷牙

又要訓覺 真係好唔想 一日又過去 除左賺了錢還做了甚麼？ 可見明天還是一樣的累 一樣的低落 悶到發慌之際 是否要開始數刷牙刷左幾下？

禮拜五

翻埋聽日終可休假 等到四月又有偉大的復活節 現在我既願望就係可以睡翻飽既 真係非常簡單 朋友話我應該去下旅行 可是我覺得我係邊度唔緊要 反而 我要知道自己係邊度 先最緊要 所以都係省翻ｄ錢 買多個枕頭仲好

那個電話

仲用緊呢個 LG 8330 電話 想當年 我同佢日日sms 幾十個就係用 這個電話 我記得 我曾經同佢講過 以我地sms 既速度 好快就可以到一萬個 到時候慶祝云云 當然 我已經沒有去 算 也沒有慶祝 現在回想 無奈的 像一段歷史 再講她 我這個blog 就無意思 但果個問題係 我現在望著果個電話既時候 就不在意的會看她有沒有寄message 給我 收不到 我的心就會有點不安 而不安就會有時候講些 無聊野 這樣對我地當然沒有好處 我朋友就曾經跟我講我send sms 有點病態 因為無時無刻 都係留意著個電話 現在雖然已經沒有sms 但係 我仲係日日留意住個電話

燦爛的笑容

想起女友興奮莫名的時候的一個笑容 有一次我跟她搭地鐵 她新買了一本雜誌裡面係講 卡拉ok 的爆笑畫面 當中有眾人打跟斗 同張衛健的兩首歌 這個夏天不太冷 跟 這個夏天不太熱 其中一首係講受我們愛戴既草猛係一首演唱會 的 歌中 一半鏡頭都係字幕 遮住了蔡一傑快面 她看了就開始失控 一直在笑 還再問 為甚麼會這樣？？？ 真的嗎 她這樣問的時候 我當然就不知道怎樣回應 其實這個問題一直都有 請問當女性發問了一些 不會有答案的問題的時候 作為男朋友 應該怎回應？ 如果我話；“成日都係咁架啦“ 就會影響氣氛 因為否定了她覺得這些事情十分罕見跟好笑的感覺 如果我話；“好好笑啊“ 我又不會好似佢咁hyper 我都笑唔出 雖然我都覺得好笑 唯一辦法就通常係講個更加好笑的東西令她越來越好笑 而我通常都認為這個方法可以避免冷場 比較適合 但唔係成日都想到好笑野架麻 咁未好麻煩？ 然而 今天想起她當天地鐵的笑容 那種燦爛無邪 又真係好甜的