Journalist Award

I never thought I am a good writer. People have told me I am still young and time is there for me to pick up new words and write well. Since I was really small, I felt I can speak better than I write. My mind is probably faster than my hands so i always jump in what I write. just saw a friend's blog who writes really well. it's strange to realize i can understand what she writes but i can never write like her. maybe it's uniqueness of life. i don't speak in a way others do but i can always listen. my ex colleague told me i could be underestimating myself and overestimating the passage of time. he said i have only been one and a half year in the writing business and i should n't stop learning although i was no longer going to be a journalist. today i saw my article won an award at the hk journalist society. well, the award is not really for me coz it's only the headline that won (i checked with the website and saw the editor's name next to my article, who obviously was the winner) but this gives me aspirations (exacebation?) as in hey man, i should have been more persistent on what i'm doing and i could have achieved more than what money counts! ok. this is a valid point since my job changes has been led by salary figures. and the problem is i still don't feel patient enough to read and my colleague said this is the only way i can improve writing.