Mozart

開住部ipod 既莫札特的歌曲 幻想自己是一個高文化的人 攸然自得的過著週日的夜晚 本來部ipod mozart既歌隔離就係DMX 同50 cents 但係今日發覺自己個胃有點酸軟 所以想聽聽據說可以放鬆心情的歌

晚上在數錢 應該係銀包收集回來的錢 (因為最近出外吃飯都用信用卡 所以收集了好多錢) 發覺這個月除了一點剩餘的卡數 都有幾千元剩 發現時 精神為之一振 跟住同自己講 錢而已 不要太緊張

回想一年前 我欠債數萬 只有一萬元人工 又不能讓家人知道 真的好辛苦

現在要盡快處理個胃殘留著當年緊張時積聚的胃酸 然而洗澡時發現肚皮有粒硬塊 希望只是一夠骨

清醒

夜闌人靜，享受難得的清醒。慶幸自己今週滴酒不沾，拒絕墮落。但根本問題仍然存在。

三小時

還有三小時就是悠長假期啦

Stupid people

I told my dad:"some people are really stupid" of coz i was talking about those people i'm training. they keep asking stupid questions and never learn. when i was saying that. i felt my nose getting sore and agitated. this is how hard i worked towards this point. it's been six months and i became the most senior reporter in the company, while four competitors resigned. they were stupid so they are off. and the company should really feel great having hired me because of what i have done and what i will do for the company. when i am now training people, the questions they are asking is really the questions i had nobody to ask. my boss at the time was so cold and she expected me to know everything or i'm too stupid to work here. and now i became evil instead of learning lesson from my boss and treating juniors better. yes it's evil but where else can i vent the steam. i told my dad. i am really smart and i felt so excited about it. but all these is only to convince myself i'm doing the right thing while the job has alreay made me sink into irrevertible challenge in life and depression.

Journalist Award

I never thought I am a good writer. People have told me I am still young and time is there for me to pick up new words and write well. Since I was really small, I felt I can speak better than I write. My mind is probably faster than my hands so i always jump in what I write. just saw a friend's blog who writes really well. it's strange to realize i can understand what she writes but i can never write like her. maybe it's uniqueness of life. i don't speak in a way others do but i can always listen. my ex colleague told me i could be underestimating myself and overestimating the passage of time. he said i have only been one and a half year in the writing business and i should n't stop learning although i was no longer going to be a journalist. today i saw my article won an award at the hk journalist society. well, the award is not really for me coz it's only the headline that won (i checked with the website and saw the editor's name next to my article, who obviously was the winner) but this gives me aspirations (exacebation?) as in hey man, i should have been more persistent on what i'm doing and i could have achieved more than what money counts! ok. this is a valid point since my job changes has been led by salary figures. and the problem is i still don't feel patient enough to read and my colleague said this is the only way i can improve writing.

Classic

XXX says:
ok, well can you say which companies you spoke to, what they said and add some analysts comment rather than just research?
XXX says:
otherwise we will have to leave on hold til you have soemthing fresh
Dennis Chong HK says:
ok, let's hold it until i get a response from the companies. but it will be after easter.
XXX says:
when is your easter?
XXX says:
our is in 2 weeks
Dennis Chong HK says:
this friday
XXX says:
what about tomorrow?
Dennis Chong HK says:
as i said the companies will not talk until next week
XXX says:
what did the companies you spoke to actually say?
XXX says:
oh, i see
XXX says:
when was this Deutsche Bank research report?
Dennis Chong HK says:
sept 2005
XXX says:
i see, from which office was it done?
Dennis Chong HK says:
it's their hong kong equity research analysts
XXX says:
since its their hong kong office would you mind calling them so we can use their comments rather than an old report?
Dennis Chong says:
i did they said they don't talk to the press. you could try
Dennis Chong says:
i don't know why they don't but it's what happened
xxx says:
that's odd, banks usually like talking abnout their reports, that why they publish them
XXX says:
have you tried to call them?
Dennis Chong HK says:
yes i did you could try now this XXX should be on her desk
XXX says:
that would be wonderrful
Dennis Chong HK says:
you can find her number on the report
XXX says:
you don't want to call?
Dennis Chong HK says:
i called her already
Dennis Chong HK says:
she said they don't speak to the press
Dennis Chong HK says:
i called 30 mins ago
XXX says:
ok, give me her number and i'll try her
Dennis Chong HK says:
the number is on the research report

女同事同自己

公司有好多女同事 日日同佢地吃飯 日日聽他們既girls talk 唯一可以埋堆既 就係一係唔講野 一係講D 中聽既野

係張檯四個人加我 一個泰國人一個韓國人一個加拿大竹昇一個澳洲番黎既 咁既配搭 的確係 我小時候夢寐以求既

幾個女人有幾種性格 但始終離唔開 "八" 呢個字 一座埋 構成1.33 個虛 我唯一可以做既就安靜咁做一個觀眾

其實我都有想 如果佢地是但一個做左我老婆會點 一個似我以前既暗戀對象 一個笨得可愛 一個好傾 一個最漂亮 四個都各有優點 而且三個都沒有男朋友

我拍過三次拖了 但論清楚自己 還未夠班 有一天 我同個舊同事吃飯 我問他幾時發覺他老婆是the right person 他說好早既知道 我問他點解 是否他大個心態唔同 佢話唔係 係因為佢知道佢想要D mud

其實都係一個一樣既答案 咁又係 佢都三張幾 都應該清楚自己要mud ge

至於我 當然覺得自己飽歷滄桑 但係相比好多人 我的確只係弔兒郎當 所以 我應該忠告自己 應該做一D現在適當做既野 想過龍 而做唔到 係沒意思的

男人之虎

昨天看了男人之虎 感覺還好 詹瑞文演技的確ㄧ流 能夠在兩個多小時不斷變更角色 演出獨腳戲 令人仰慕 這就是藝術工作者 不怕艱辛 努力向目標進發 在惡劣的生存環境當中不斷自強 他從二十出頭在英國演街頭戲 到現在能在香港市場經濟中扮演重要文化角色 是年輕人學習對象 他在戲中講 香港男人最大弱點是只懂用筷子吃蛋糕 （意即沒叉用） 此話應當喚醒本地ㄧ眾師爺 從其無病呻吟 及自尋煩惱當中 尋找出路 重拾生活 看完話劇 並沒有得到啟發 倒在街上遊蕩數小時 還在麥當勞寫下令人吃驚的文章 現在文章應當儲存在垃圾堆填區中 大概很快便會被壓在汽水罐之下 長埋地上