2days

It's been two days since I made a swift exit from my company. This morning, I bought a copy of The Standard and realised they made the section one page less. I said to my dad:''They cut one page because of me, haha'' I also realised the front page story was about something I was working on. Now the government is looking at the issue because a legislator proposed his comments in the chamber. It should have been me who went to this assignment. It should have been me who was saying ''what the fxxk'' while writing the story because it is totally no point of a top story. but now i'm totally off. Except a few lunch-time appointments with the ex-colleagues I liked, I won't be back at least half a year from now. My editor told me:''Whatever it is going on, hope u can settle whatever it's going on.'' He said it after couple of attempts to know why I wanted to leave in such a sudden way. ''family matters'' was what i told him..well, them. almost all of them think i need to go back to taiwan in a bid to help lien chen in the disputed presidential election. ha, I left with a mystery. i like that. but anyhow, i believe this decision will pay off. I will rid all pains in six months. I will be drinking tapioca milk tea on a busy taipei street with a peaceful mind. I will hang out with my best friend who is coming to hk from the united states. I think I can make it. Only one thing still engulfs me. There is somebody who has made me happy and, at the same time, I've managed to loosen her up. Now I still wanna do the same, just that I am not capable anymore. I need time to fix myself. I know I will just make things worse if I go ahead the way I used to. Well, but I still care. I miss her so much.