domestic work

Parents are gone to China for an eight-day trip. I will be a domestic boy til next week. Besides having to buy newspaper for my stock market-addicted dad's reference, cooking may be another thing i need to do after I eat up all food stocked up by my mom before she left. Today I even made chinese herbal tea for the first time, and this is how i realised i didn't even know how to use my home's stove. Being a homemaker is not that easy, but i can tell great feelings will follow after you feel you have made it. the alarm clock to calculate the boiling time, the laundry machine that i have never used before...or the dirty floor..give me a chance to get organised. When I am under high alert in order not to have the medicine overheated and spilled out, my friend who just lost his girlfriend became so lonesome that he wanted me to have a walk with him. there is one thing made clear here - the internet has become the last option for people who really has nothing to do. in other words, you tend to see people, like my friend, with nothing to do hanging around here. at the same time, something has become unclear, it seems there is nothing interests me except sport that i have put down since my ankle was broken some four years ago. it's a real problem man. if there is no sports, what else can i do? Here comes just another lonesome man...well. boy. maybe i should have a walk with my women-hungry friend.

news

Today's newsy thought: It has been reported that several people were killed and others wounded in a confrontation between US soldiers and ''insurgents''. Witnesses said the fighting began after US troops raided into the town of Fallujah to conduct house-to-house searches. Questions: Why were they called insurgents? They were legal Iraqi citizens. What were the Americans doing there? House-to-house searches? Aren't they violating privacy laws that were deeply respected in their own country? Well. Were the soldiers killed or the insurgents?

Solomon Islands

The Prime Minister of the Solomon Islands has warned a senior official in his canbinet to either abandon a trip to Hong Kong or get sacked. Allan Kemakeza, who fears the long- standing relations between the two island nations could become strained if the Hong Kong trip goes ahead, laid down his marker following an embassy warning from Taiwan. Sir Politics is sometimes like a game between two children: ''If you dont' give me back the candy, I won't play with you anymore.''

2days

It's been two days since I made a swift exit from my company. This morning, I bought a copy of The Standard and realised they made the section one page less. I said to my dad:''They cut one page because of me, haha'' I also realised the front page story was about something I was working on. Now the government is looking at the issue because a legislator proposed his comments in the chamber. It should have been me who went to this assignment. It should have been me who was saying ''what the fxxk'' while writing the story because it is totally no point of a top story. but now i'm totally off. Except a few lunch-time appointments with the ex-colleagues I liked, I won't be back at least half a year from now. My editor told me:''Whatever it is going on, hope u can settle whatever it's going on.'' He said it after couple of attempts to know why I wanted to leave in such a sudden way. ''family matters'' was what i told him..well, them. almost all of them think i need to go back to taiwan in a bid to help lien chen in the disputed presidential election. ha, I left with a mystery. i like that. but anyhow, i believe this decision will pay off. I will rid all pains in six months. I will be drinking tapioca milk tea on a busy taipei street with a peaceful mind. I will hang out with my best friend who is coming to hk from the united states. I think I can make it. Only one thing still engulfs me. There is somebody who has made me happy and, at the same time, I've managed to loosen her up. Now I still wanna do the same, just that I am not capable anymore. I need time to fix myself. I know I will just make things worse if I go ahead the way I used to. Well, but I still care. I miss her so much.

Gathering storm

Watched the ''gathering storm'' tonight on HBO. At the age of 23, I finally got tot know the self-centredness, persistence and an eccentric mind the greatest Englishman ever bore. It is a pity that the movie ended at his return to the English navy with his well-known remarks: ``Winston is back!''. Just too early to end. I thought the movie would drag on until he finished his war with the help of the Americans. But for a man like this, a 2-hour film should not be enough to accurately depict what he did and truly reflect his peronalities. One thing i learnt though- to be great, you cannot cooperate. Persist if you believe in it. There is no truth in the world. There is only history. One has to bear responbilities of wrong decisions. But, if you are not brave enough to follow your own route, only failure will follow and you will have to bear the responsibility too - for mediocrisy.

yeah

YEAH. headline again. I should think my efforts paid off~

holiday

Two days holidays from today. I can finally enjoy writing my diary on my i mac computer sitting right next to the charging ipod mp3 player - my whole apple experience. the now broadband tv modem is quietly sleeping but i know she's dozens of channels waiting for me whenever i feel like touching her remote. yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah. although it is 2am i am super really tired but i'm also so high. my home. the smell. you ought to feel it sometimes. btw, sorry about those irritating comments on sexuality. but this is supposed to be my personal diary instead of a forum. so please give only friendly notes.

wadashino@hotel

Haven't written diary for ages. I am now lying on a couch in the living room of the business class room in China Hotel Guangzhou. Finally have some time to relax. When was the last time I can surf the net without having to worry about work. But, this moment came after 14 hours of extreme high alert. China - a haunting place.