just some thoughts (very random ones)

When people are getting older, you are not gonna be very quick to spot who you are gonna like and who you are not. the reason is simple and needs not be explained. but there are things that you are to decide upon and when you do so, you are gonna be so sure that no one can change you. this is what some called stubborn but this is what i reckon to be an important trait that a grownup should demonstrate. this is life, you are not gonna be liked by everyone, there are people who look down on you but you are treasures to an important few.

as a man, it's very important not to underestimate you. as sunzi said, you should know yourself and know others before being sure that you will prevail. if you can get an A, don't be afraid to get it. although you may encounter hardship during the process, your determination is what it takes to reach the end goal. if you deserve something, go for it. trying and failing is always appreciated rather than wanting but escaping.

for the past ten years, i felt i haven't accomplished so much since i have seldom tried. although i didn't fail either, this is not what life should be led. although i'm doing well at jobs, this style of handling decisions and personal goals has given me a serious and obvious punishment. i know i'm not gonna change myself in a day. i'll let god decide when i will be ready.