salary

I realised how indifferent money is to me, so is bureaucracy. I would just toss company documents on the desk until everything gets so messy that i can't find it. I would not bother to claim back travel expenses. I would not care how much pay i get for this month. like today, i got a HK$5,200 check. why the hell is it so much? i dun really care. i dun bother to calculate it. well, of coz coz it's more than i thought i should get. but still...maybe i'll be a great person because i don't care about the pay :P or i will get broke before 50 y/o. coz of the big check, i rewarded myself by buying two CDs i wanted to get in taiwan but coz of the funny ride through lunar new year traffic, during which my younger and older cousins kept telling joking to relieve my fear that i would not be able to work the next day, i could only rush through the immigration, even failing to tell the officer where i stayed and my phone number and stuff. but he let me go anyway haha. the CDs i got are eva siu and liang jing ru, two favourites after yan zi.

airport

It was so close i was just about to miss the flight. it took me two hours from my home in hsinchu to taipei airport. lunar new year jam. everybody going home. it was actually a dillemma as my cousin kept telling me some places i have never been, some nice markets where i can try new tastes of food. i really wanna stay. i tried to respond to their jokes by saying,'' where is ji long? what is the best there'' for the first hour. but then when time passed, i started to feel very very stressed, like i'm always...but i didn't wanna be absent from work the next day..um..job...is different from school. well. during then, my cute cousin kept saying stupid stuff such as proving how bad she is in memorizing my phone number and my older cousin matching and making fun of her. so funny. one sweet thing, i always think of their good motives. bc they are always so nice to me. and they are real. taiwanese are more real than hk people. i bet they were trying ease my fear. that's it. and they did. after bumpy rides in local roads bc every single entrance to highway were packed with cars and buses...even the shoulders were jammed. (well, we mistakenly thought once one particular section was not jammed because we saw some cars moving, but actually they were those illegally sneaking through on the buffer lane)...after the bumpy rides, we arrived at taipei international airport 2 mintues before the counter closed. i could even not see off one cousin as she was inside the car. there were four of them. only one went with me to the counter. i could only wave a short bye to them. it's a pity. but the time is late enough that the lady staff was kinda pissed as she didn't answer me questions with the usual smile and politeness. but still. i could get through. The first thing i did at the waiting gate was , of coz, call my cousins and said thx to them.

Breeding ground for death

I just got an assignment for tomorrow. I'll go to Mai Po, the preserved natural habitat for wild birds up north. I bet it'll be cold I guess I'll be tired. No more night shift, just for one day. The line: The scenic fabulous place for bird and tourists, but is it the breeding ground for death? Sounds quite nice. I am sure it's not my editor's idea :P should have been new boss'.

Coutdown@the office

Yeah clock ticking towards midnight, but i'm still in kowloon bay stuffy filthy office of the empty desks around me. night shifts. but I checked in at 1030am somehow. nobody told me about the new policy that came in effect 1am last night. just have no time to inform me. but why? better don't ask why. you are fucking new. just down it. went to bed at four, got up at eight. great. it sounds like a taxi driver, but i will start work at 6pm tomm. how funny.

Taipei Times

Latest goal. Taipei times reporter. apartment at new town near taipei. really nice. city planning like the states. it's so easy to go to taiwan now. i felt like i went there to sing karaoke this weekend. didn't do much. but relaxed a lot. I love taiwan. it's my 2nd home. so many memories. so many connections. so nice seniors. best place to get away. made a very good choice. but sorry U friends. i mistook this sun into another one. so you guys may think i lied. but i really thought i had to work on sunday. except this one that i was actually in taiwan playing basketball. i love it.

pub@cheklapkok

This is what i wrote in a nice pub where I had a cup of apple cider and few pieces of spiced peanut. ''I am now in the airport lounge beyond the immigration clearance. This is basically a citizen's lounge. i call it citizen's just because there are somewhere that i can't really go in without paying. It's a basic free lounge. Sitting at the co-called Cafe Deco pub and restaurant, which has a Chinese name equivalent to ''Victoria's view'', I am only able to overlook the people milling around downstairs at the airport shopping floor. It's raining outside anyway, while the fireworks are flashing off the sanpan tied to the rusted docks in the real Victoria Harbour. Here we got an South East Asian-looking lady singing R & B in front of me. Nobody is actually looking at her, but she's putting all kinds of emotions on her face to make sure it looks like she's interacting with the audience. She seems to be enjoying herself though as she would talk to her guitarists before beginning another song. Professional. HK airport now gets a shopping floor and a food court floor. As the SCMP puts it the other day, it's no longer a cold place. They got restaurants, fastfood shops and even pubs where you can watch football. They even got the American Popeye's and Burger King right next to the Japanese Ajisen Ramen. International airport. Walking towards to the waiting hall after finishing a meal can really make you feel the closeness and convenience of this close-to-perfect design. you feel like ''it's right there!'' and you would mumble out the ''wow'' feelings with some onion smells from the ramen you just ate. You can't even eat after you cross the Octopus machine at MTR stations can you? it's just so close here. The singer is now talking to some American guys as one table of people took off without even a turn of a head. ''I have never been there'' she said to the guy. '' I won a free trip there'' he said. ''oh you did,'' she replied. Non-sense :D so stupid conversation :D maybe it's called chitchat. i spent some three hundred dollars in two hours. i bought one book, ate and now having a drink at this nice pub. Spending money with your credit is just one way to fill the emptiness. well. problem lingers. but i'm sure i'll feel completely different two hours later, as i'll see my lovely cousins. I hope.'' And finally i did relax, after playing basketball and chatting til dawn with my cousin.

Taiwan

Yesterday when I was eating with my parents, we suddenly go to the point that my dad will play mahjong with his friends on ''chu san''. I remember I asked,'' what are we gonng do then[me and my mom],'' and i said we will go to taiwan then. My dad's reaction to everything was said in the familiy always has a huge impact. He said,'' why not?'' then everyone of us, (basically just me and mom, or only me) got so excited, and started to say we made so much money last year [ from the stock market], and i already got a job, it should be no problem. actually my dad has been pretty excited about everything happened last year, everything means the stock market. anyway he's been pretty upbeat these days. with mom's almost always control[not really control, but dominated?] by two of us, we got the bill and rushed to the travel agency. ok, we are gonna pay, but my sis suddenly called and asked where we will be at on the first day of new year(which is today), of coz we said we'll be in taiwan and dad will be home, she cried foul. she was gonna give us a surprise by ring us outside our door, after a long haul flight from the US. oh well, then my mom stole the payment slip from the agent, and we made it void. of coz, they have been waiting for my sis for so long. I guess my dad won't be playing mahjong either. as what he puts it,'' oh i can't play mahjong then''. they'll be getting prepared for everything that they think, and i won't have the heart to think, my sis will like by then. 10 minutes later, i said,'' I will go by myself,'' and here i come taiwan. one of my cousin has been working really hard, he's studying parttime with a full time job. I totally understand how hard it could be, staining your textbooks with coffee from the office pantry. i think i'm gonna see him. but more importantly, i wanna get away. I dunno how to put it, but i just wanna get away. my real friends will know why.